Billie Eilish looks back on her success.
The 21-year-old pop singer told Allure’s Best Of Beauty issue that she’s still struggling with her massive fame.
“I’m starting to get better, but to be honest I haven’t been doing that well.” For a while. “I feel like doom is coming most of the day,” shared the star, who had a hit song in the Barbie blockbuster.
“Thinking too much about never being able to have privacy again is enough to make you want to do all sorts of crazy things. ‘But you have to let it go.’
One of their problems is control and learning to let go a little.
Three times beautiful: Billie Eilish looks back on her success. The 21-year-old pop singer told Allure’s Best Of Beauty issue that she’s still struggling with her massive fame
Up close: “I’m starting to get better, but to be honest I haven’t been doing so well.” For a while. “I feel like doom is imminent most of the day,” shared the star, who has sung songs for a James Bond film and, more recently, the Barbie blockbuster
“There was this moment when I was in Paris, we were driving around and I was feeling bad. It wasn’t a good time for old Bill. I wasn’t getting better and I didn’t know when I would.
“And this motorcycle pulled up next to the car, and there was a sticker on this guy’s helmet that said, ‘Keep riding,’ in all caps. I sat there and said, Oh. Message received.
“I have a really big problem with control, so I tried to teach myself that there are things that are out of control and you have to move on.” I’ve often found myself resigned to things, people and life. I settled for less than I deserved and I won’t do that anymore.”
As a teenager, she felt more comfortable: “When I was 17, I thought I’d found it.” I’d found the person I was, forever. That’s how I’m gonna do it. I have found all the ways!’ she told writer Arabelle Sicardi.
“These are my boundaries. These are the things that make me happy, and this is my recipe for how I’m going to make music and be happy.”
But things changed.
“Then I grew up a little bit, and suddenly life was like this: This isn’t going to work. You have to change. “You’re not that person anymore.”
In Red: “Thinking too much about how I’ll never have privacy again is enough to make you want to do all kinds of crazy things. But you have to let it go,” she said
Red-y for more: One of her problems is control and learning to let go a little
Her advice to fellow artists and women: “But the thing is, people should know – women should know – that you don’t have to be extraordinary.” You can just be human and should get awards for it.
“Sometimes artists don’t have plans, and that’s fine, but I had one and didn’t want to waste it.”
On co-writing “What Was I Made For?” with her brother and collaborator Finneas O’Connell for the Barbie soundtrack: “We wrote it at a time when we couldn’t have been less inspired and less creative.” That day we were doing stuff and thinking, ‘We’ve lost it.’ Why are we even doing this?’
“And then those first chords happened and ‘I used to float / now I just fall down’ came out and the song wrote itself.”
“I have the whole video of us writing the song and the first thing we wrote were these lines in the first 10 minutes.” We wrote most of the song without thinking about ourselves and our own lives to think about, but about this character who inspired us.
“A few days went by and I realized it was about me. It’s all I feel. And it’s not just me – it’s the same for everyone at some point.”
Their atmospheric shoot was taken by photographer Cho Gi-Seok.
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